Fic: Carefully Constructed Façade (NCIS)

[kaylashay81]

Title: Carefully Constructed Façade
Author: kaylashay81
Rating: FR13
Disclaimer: I'm not Bellesario or CBS, so I don't claim to own them.
Challenge: ncisdrabble100; Challenge #76 - Undercover
Word Count: 300
Timeline: Pre-Series

Note: This is actually an intro to a longer fic I'm working on titled Second Glance, but felt that it could stand on its own for this challenge.

Crossposted: ncisdrabble100; ncisfanfic; ncis_haven; tonydinozzo

Summary: Building a façade for others to see was second nature to him.

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No one takes a second glance and I use that to my advantage.

I learned that lesson at five years old in my father’s study as I gave him my daily report. He wanted to hear that I had mastered a new song on the piano, that the expensive writing instructor he hired had praised my beginning penmanship, that I had acted the proper gentleman at the social event my mother took me to… so I told him what he wanted to hear.

The next day, I stood on trembling knees waiting for him to berate me for lying. Waiting for him to say that my piano instructor called me hopeless, that the writing instructor still couldn’t make me understand the difference between ‘b’ and ‘d’, that I was the one who put the spider on the back of the senator’s wife’s dress (in my defense, she had pinched my cheeks and called me a cute little sailor)… but he never did. All he did was ask me to pour his drink and dismiss me after he determined the beverage met his approval. My father took one glance and never looked deeper to see who I really was behind the façade I slowly created.

Perhaps I should thank him one day. If it wasn’t for his disregard, I wouldn’t be the half the federal agent I became without all those years of hiding myself from those around me. If he had looked deeper, he may have worked to bring me under his control before I was old enough to really fight him for it. I could have ended up the perfect heir he always wanted instead of being my own man; even if I don’t really know who I am. Not knowing is better than the alternative in my book.

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Comments

[citymusings.livejournal.com]

Well written! Good insights into Tony's past and how the negative has positively affected him. Enjoyed it very much. You write the best Tony drabbles!

[writinginct.livejournal.com]

This is a great piece - either stand alone or as part of a larger fic.

^_^

~CJ

[emony2.livejournal.com]

Fantastic!

[azraelz-angel.livejournal.com]

Awww that was just heartbreaking! But Tony is right, if his father had cared or decided to take a real interest in his son then Tony wouldn't be the Tony that we know and love.

Great job with this. I can't wait to read the rest of the fic *grin*

[writinginct.livejournal.com]

Hit and run icon love ^_^

[strangevisitor7.livejournal.com]

Nice insight. i look forward to reading the longer fic.

[maras-morgue.livejournal.com]

nice look innto Tony's head (scary place though it may be). Well-written and believable. good job :D

[chatona.livejournal.com]

That was absolutely gorgeous - in a sad, hurty kind of way. And I think it rang very true to Tony's character. Thanks for sharing! :D

[rainne]

excellent peek into Tony's psyche. I like it very much.

[kaylashay81]

I think you've read most of this before with the additional pieces... I'm still working on that, but I thought the beginning worked well alone. :-)

[kaylashay81]

I love my Tony and he makes such good drabbles. :-)

[kaylashay81]

Yay! :-)

[kaylashay81]

*iz alive, but work is crazy*

I should write an AU sometime of Tony meeting Gibbs when he isn't a cop but a business exec... I've see a few fics out there with that.

[kaylashay81]

The longer fic is actually the first NCIS fic I started writing last fall. I started it a character study of Tony so I could start writing more NCIS fics after getting inside Tony's head... well the other fics came and this one never finished itself. I'll have to rectify that.

:-)

[kaylashay81]

Thanks for the feedback. I love the inside of Tony's mind for some reason. I feel like there is so much more inside there than what he shows on the outside.

[kaylashay81]

:-)

If it wasn't for Daddy D, Tony might not be the goofball we all love and get annoyed by. Glad you liked!

[kaylashay81]

*bounces*

Glad you liked it... peeking into Tony's psyche has become a favorite pastime of mine

[citymusings.livejournal.com]

Good. As long as you love to write them, I love to read them. ;)

thanks much

[(Anonymous)]

thats it, bro